[At the age of five...he'd been Emperor already. She hadn't had a childhood, either, and by now, probably doesn't want one. She doesn't even seem to lack identity the way he does--she identifies solely with this conditioning. Like all the emperors who felt like they had become that way because they were entitled to it, not because people were entitled to them. Defining herself with a role she'd been given by someone else.]

So you were trained and they weren't. And you felt that because of your training, you should have been able to keep them from killing him.